lonely train

we stood there waiting for the train to come .. we knew it was coming .. we just didn't know when it was coming .. but it was definitely coming .. we were sure of it .. it was going to take us to heaven .. or so we believed .. we believed a lot of things back then.
at first we didn't think we would have to wait very long .. it'll be here any minute now we would tell each other .. but days and weeks and months passed and still no train .. as the wait got longer .. we grew tired of standing and decided to sit down .. we told each other stories .. played games .. anything that made the time go by quicker.
but as the wait grew longer .. she became more and more restless .. are you sure it's coming she would ask .. yes baby i'm sure i would tell her .. and she would say i hope you're right .. it wasn't hard to see the doubt in her eyes .. i could sense her conviction growing weaker .. but i never said anything .. i just pretended i didn't notice.
one day i awoke to find her standing there with her suitcases .. telling me goodbye .. that she was sick of waiting .. i'm not as strong as you she said .. i can't wait forever .. i tried to convince her that the train was coming .. that if she would just wait a little longer we would be on our way to heaven .. but she had already made up her mind .. and she walked away without looking back.
so i sat there all alone .. waiting for the train to come .. a few more days passed and still no sign of it .. i began to have doubts myself .. what if there was no train .. what if there is a train but i missed it .. what if there is a train but i'm waiting at the wrong station .. what if the train came while i was asleep or in the bathroom .. all kinds of thoughts filled my head .. i would have dreams about missing the train .. it felt like i might go crazy .. at one point i even considered leaving the station and following her .. you were right i would tell her when i see her .. there is no train .. i'm sorry i wasted your time like that.
but suddenly i heard a sound in the distance .. i could see a cloud of smoke .. it was the train .. i was so relieved to see it .. i quickly got up and brushed off my clothes .. got my suitcases and stood waiting for it to arrive .. it pulled up at the station and i boarded .. there were so many people on the train .. i didn't recognize any of them .. they all looked so happy .. some were chatting away with one another .. nobody paid any attention to me as i got on.
and now as i sit here in my seat .. headphones in my ears .. looking out the window .. on my way to heaven .. all i can think is .. i wish she were here sitting next to me.